dear peanut butter,

sooo...first thing that happened when i went into work was they asked me to help them move around the luggage section from the back of the store to ther front of the store. then after 15 minutes my manager asked me to cover the fitting room for an hour. the customers were pissing me off soooo bad. i wanted to call you soo badly too. but i couldn't. it sucks that i can't call long distance from work. :( anyways, while i was covering my manager asked me to help push an entire small wall of stuff to the front of the store. the good thing is she helped to push. the bad thing is i had customers in the fitting rooms. LOL i don't know.

i can't wait till i get to see you...scratch that...i can't wait till i get to hold you, and kiss you, and rub you ;P. haha. 17 days baby, 17 days.

i'm going to stop here since i'm still on webcam with you. i wonder how often you check this...1843637

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

so i was walking sojo and it was going well until...
a dog ran out the door and his owner was trying to get him back into the house and sojo saw the dog, PLUS there were 2 squirrels. and you know sojo. he got all excited and ran behind me. i went to grab the leash as he came around to stop him but i missed the leash and it hit my knee...i fell backwards. he effing tripped me!!! you would've laughed so hard if you saw it and luckily there was no one else around to see it. the owner of the other dog got him in the house and missed the whole thing. *phew. anywaaays...

i wonder what your doing. i hope it's something exciting. i wonder if you're going to come online. i don't have work until 6pm. but i'll talk to you tonight (i hope *crosses fingers*)

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love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i want to talk to you again. *sigh. i really really miss you. 18 days until i get to see you. are you picking me up at the airport? ate jeime is dropping me off at the airport. i can't wait to see you.

i didn't get a chance to tell you my work story. me and ashley were helping a customer in jeweleryand then zeeshan came by and he asked why we were both there. ashley gets nervous when she has to cover jewelery and the customer we were helping had a lot of things to pay for. and then he said that we both didn't need to be there (however if i wasn't there ashley probably would've made a mistake and gotten in trouble for it). then he made me zone menswear and put out a buggy of overstock thermal underwear. i don't know. maybe i'm over reacting. i don't know...

well, i'm going to play with my facebook games and then maybe i'll play yours. LOL. 1843637

love,
chocolate cup

dear peanut butter,

it's 6:10am. Why can't i sleep?!?!?!?!

missing you like crazy

love always and forever,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i'm sitting here thinking about you. are you thinking about me? i should be getting ready for work but i thought maybe i'd come on here and write a little something first.

you haven't left anything in the tagboard lately. i wonder if you check this.

i'm going to get ready for work. i miss you

love always and forever,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i don't like arguing with you. i said "fine goodnight" because i disappointed you had to get off but you had to because you needed to sleep. that's all. i'm doing ok. it isn't a reflection of my state of being (not that what i just wrote makes sense).

we seems to argue more when we're not together. i know we can get through this time of being apart, we just need to work at it more. we're going to be so tired.

i don't know whether you're going to appreciate this entry or totally hate me for it but i love you so much and i miss you so much. i just wish i could be in your arms right now drifting off to sleep. that's all. i just want to be with you.

i'll write again later.

love,
chocolate cup.

(time: 6:01AM)

dear peanut butter,

i don't want to wait the 22 days that are left to see you. i hope you'll be able to come online tonight so i can see you on the webcam. like i told you last night it's hard to sleep. and unless i sleep 2 hours in 2 days i won't sleep well the third day. hahaha! i've stopped hearing the alarm (that might be because it's on the floor but i can't hear it at all). i don't know. i hear skype though. i don't know. hahahahahaha!

well i'm going to finish getting ready for work. 1843637

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

22 days. i'm so excited. it's 12:54am and i'm kind of getting tired. i should've slept last night. hahaha! anyways. i never should've called you...i wanted to tell you i was going to try to go to bed but if you're going to call me then i'll wait. i love you so much. and i miss you so much.

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

23 days. i can't sleep. i should nap...

i love you.

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i'm kind of bummed that i can't really talk to you tonight but it's ok. i'll just talk to you here. frances asked me if i could sew the costumes for her musical thing. i'm kind of excited about it. i don't know. it's like my second big sewing project this year. LOL

i'm craving chips like crazy. *sigh. i haven't showered yet today. i should go do that but i'm going to finish the rest of the room before i shower. so yesss. i'm going to finish cleaning.

love you baby.

chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

1. 25 days
2. i miss you like crazy
3. i don't like money. we always argue about it.
4. i love you so much

love,
chocolate cup

dear peanut butter,

i hope your having fun watching the fight. =)

love,
chocolate cup

dear peanut butter,

i cannot stay in a silent room. i'll cry. *ugh. this is like my 4th entry today. i think i'm going nuts. it could be lack of sleep though. i don't know.

ok bye.

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i seriously can't sleep. it's 6:57am here and i can't sleep (i know i said that already, i just can't think of any other words to describe it)

i was lying here in bed trying to sleep and i was holding one pillow in my arms and i started crying. i want the pilllow to be you. i don't want to sleep alone anymore. i want to hold you in my arms. (i hate when i'm on my period, my emotions take control over me).

i don't know if i said this or not but i couldn't cry before and now i can't stop. i can barely see what i'm typing. (obviously i have edited it because the spelling is all correct). i want you to come home but i don't want you to come home because you would never be happy here. even if you were with me here in toronto you would never be happy.

the sun is coming up. i don't know if your parents and sisters will be up soon (i doubt it, it's a saturday) but i'm pretty sure i'll still be up when they get up. i don't feel sleepy at all. i don't know what's wrong. it might be because i have the day off. i don't know. all i know if that you're going to read this and you're going to think i'm crazy cause this entry is so random.

i don't want to see anyone but you. i don't want to open the door unless you're knocking on it waiting to come in. i want to touch your face and kiss your lips. i want to look into your eyes and tell you i love you. i don't want to wait 27 days.

i'm going to continue watching friends because it's the only thing keeping me from crying because it's so funny.

i miss you so much it hurts.

love,
chocolate cup

dear peanut butter,

you know i love you right? and that i want to be with you for the rest of our lives. i'm sorry if anything i said hurt you or made you upset.

...bathroom break...

i just got my period. = i should've guessed it was coming because we were arguing. i usually argue or start one before i get my period. but i can't just blame aunt flo. i'm mostly to blame.

i can't wait to talk to you later.

love,
chocolate cup.

P.S: during the next week there will be several entries...all (most probably) emo. just so you know. you may not want to take me seriously....especially if i'm complaining about not talking to you. :)

dear peanut butter,

- 27 days
- i wonder if you've been reading this. i haven't gotten any new tags lately.
- i don't know if i'm going to have money when i see you :( since i'm short this paycheck i won't be able to save much. not even like $10. i don't know what to do...
- i still have to stop by the bank to pick up some temp cheques to apply for dell monthly payment whatever and to apply for a credit card with my mommy. i have a feeling i won't get either.
- i don't know what's wrong with my credit. i found out the other day that unpaid library fines affect your credit. maybe that's what's screwing me over...

anywaaays. i'm going to cut this short but i might be back later, when i can't sleep and have nothing to do/want to talk to you because you're sleeping.

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i missed talking to you this morning/afternoon. where were you? and you didn't answer any of my text messages. i'm freaking out. ahhh! if i don't talk to you tonight when i get home i don't know what i'm going to do...*sigh

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i can't sleep. i finished watching those csi episodes that you told me to watch. it was almost epic. the ending was boring. i was thinking maybe they were all going to team up in one place (i.e. las vegas). i don't know. maybe i expected too much. hehehe.

i see you in about 28 days. i'm getting antsy. i don't want to wait anymore. i wanna be next to you so badly.

i'm trying to play music but it makes me cry. hehehe. tugs at me tear glands. i would watch something but i'm so sick of family guy. lol. plus if i put a movie on i'd want to watch it. *sigh.

i hope you're doing ok there baby. i miss you so much. i'm going to try to sleep because i have work later. 1843637

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

29 days.
i'm so excited.

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i just finished watching moulin rouge. they sang come what may and i thought of you (not that i wasn't already thinking about you).

anywaays. off to bed now like you said. i love you so much. *kiss kiss*

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i miss you so much. i was cleaning the room and it's taking me soooo long. it would be so much faster if you were here with me. unlike you i can rest before i'm finished cleaning. i need you to be here to keep me cleaning and to tell me not to stop before i finish.

*sigh.

and this thing with your parents is scaring me. i'm scared. i hope everything is ok tomorrow.

i love you so much. i'm going to play your pet society and restaurant city now.

love,
chocolate cup

dear peanut butter,

again when i was at work i wanted to stop what i was doing and call you/text you. *sigh. i can't wait 30 days until i see you. i wanna be with you right now!

anyways. i'm going to start cleaning the room. talk to you soon. see you in 30(days).

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i can't sleep! =(

love,
chocolate cup

dear peanut butter,

dear peanut butter,

i don't know how i'm feeling anymore. i can't cry. even though i want to i can't. i went to sleep in the middle of the bed last night and ended up on the left side. thanks for hanging up on me by the way. your going to have to deal with me being moody because i don't know why you left me. i don't know where anything is. i feel so lost. i don't know what to do with myself. i don't want to go to school. i don't want to go to work. there's no motivation for me here. you shouldn't have left. i'm going to end up hurting myself i can feel it.

come home now. i need you here.

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

this is my second post to you today. since i have nothing to do there might be a third. i'm just wiating for something to happen in one of my games. i don't know. anywaaays, you're probably out and about doing your thang while i sit here watching family guy and bloging to you. i'm going to stop here before i get sappy. lol. i love you.

love,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

surprisingly enough last night i didn't cry myself to sleep.
mind you i distracted myself with facebook games and family guy until i felt too sleepy to do anything else.
i miss you like crazy and i feel so lost without you here with me. i'm finding company in your family.
i don't feel like calling my friends.

as you can see this is my blog to you. i'm hoping to write here everyday but we'll see. lol.

love always,
chocolate cup.