dear peanut butter,

Guess mine is not
The first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you

I know I'm just A fool
who's willing
To sit around and wait for you
But baby can't you see
There's nothing else for me to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's nowhere to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you

My head is saying
Fool forget him her
My heart is saying don't let go
Hold on to the end
And that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you

But now there's no where to hide
Since you pushed my love aside
I'm out of my head
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you

dear peanut butter,

you're at church or maybe on your way home. where ever you are i just wanted to say goodnight. i'm going to bed because i have to work early. it's only a 5 1/2 hour shift but still. i need to get some sleep. i'll be up at 4:30am (2:30am there) maybe you'll still be awake. i'll talk to you when i get home if i don't talk to you before i leave.

here's a little video thanks to my little obsession with grease. lol.



love you so much

love always and forever,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

here's another one. you might think i'm crazy . hahaha.

it's just a video though....

dear peanut butter,

i'm scared (as usual). scared that after i put you through school you're going to find someone better than me and leave. or maybe you and a certain someone are scheming against me to make me feel humiliated and broken. i guess i'm just being paranoid (and overthinking things and you're probably going to resent me for saying what i just said...).

love always and forever; no matter what,
chocolate cup.

countdown: 22 days.

dear peanut butter,

even though you've been gone so long...
everytime i hear a car pass by blasting music...
i think it's you coming home from being out with friends or from work or whatever...

i'm a nutcase.
maybe i should be the peaNUT butter. hehehe

love always and forever,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i hope you sleep well. and if you don't i hope you'r able to take a nap in the middle of the day. i should be home arrround 4:30pm? i'm not sure. i have to go to the bank.

i still have to ask your parents if my sister can come over to do her homework. *sigh.

anyways. i'm going to get ready for work.

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love always,
chocolate cup.

dear peanut butter,

i know i'm supposed to be sleeping and all but i want to see you and talk to you. but you went to church and it's 11:02pm here and i have work at 7:00am and i'm planning on getting up at 4:00am. if anything i'll talk to you before i leave or even get ready for work..

i notice i'm not one to update a blog or journal everyday. i don't know why i have them. i don't know if you're even going to want to read this. hehehe. i'm so boring most of the time.

today at work, my friends rochelle was in the store buying glasses for her 3-year-old daughter. i saw them in the vision centre and i asked rochelle what she was doing at the store on her day off. jasmine came running to me saying, "tita mary" and she gave me the biggest hug. i said her boots were nice so she offered to give them to me when she was done wearing them. hehehe. i went to the front to do i don't know what and i went past again and she put on the glasses she picked out and ran to show me. hehehe. i don't know if you'll think this is interesting but it was one of the things that made my day.

when i got home no one was here. i was sad. lol. i'm such a loser. oh...i also locked the room key in the room. kuya vince climbed up to the window and got me the key. i'm such a dumb dumb don't you think.

i saw austin today and he made me so happy. we were watching happy feet and he was laughing and laughing. he also kept hiding under the blanket.

i wonder if you still check this since i haven't been updating. nothing exciting ever happens. i think you'll get bored of reading , "dear peanut butter, i love you. i miss you. love always chocolate cup." over and over and over again. i wanted to write about the exciting things that happen in my life but there really was never anything exciting to talk about. i usually have a lot to complain about...i don't think you'll want to read about it either.

you're coming home soon. i kind of can't believe that you were going to come home. i thought maybe you would change you're mind about it. i guess i was wrong. i have missed you so much (you already know). oh. that reminds me of the song by 112...



hehehe. that was random but you know. anywaaays. i'm really going to go to sleep now. i hope your not mad that i have to sleep early.

i freaking love you always and forever no matter what

love,
chocoalte cup.